Writing and confidence. Building enough courage to say, go!

So today I spent virtually 10 hours reviewing, revising, and proof reading 80% of my book. I have over 90,000 words written so far, and I couldn’t do it all in one day. I tend to be a perfectionist.

My cat, Sasha, kept me company for at least 2 hours. While I was distracted and had set my laptop out of my lap for a total of 5 minutes, she snuck up and laid down on one of my legs. So I’m sitting there thinking, “Hmmm. How am I going to do this? She’s in the way.” 🀨 I balanced my laptop on my right knee, and voila! πŸ€— All was well. She was so cute, her smug look like, “I’m helping😌” cracked me up! Cats have the funniest personalities. But my butt was numb and hurting after a while because I couldn’t move. Thanks, Sasha. πŸ˜‚πŸ™„

I recently talked with someone my age (I’m 21 by the way) who is also writing a few books. We had a nice long talk about it, which was GREAT. Being able to connect to another human being about the struggles of writing a book…priceless.πŸ™ŒπŸ» Writing a book takes a lot of research and the details are killer. So are the conversations. But one of the hardest parts is each individual personality that you have to creat for each character. A personality isn’t a simple thing. What do they like, what makes them tick, how do they react to every single little thing and what do they think of everything? It’s basically creating a bunch of people you’ve never met and trying to understand how different types of people’a brain’s work and how they think while creating them. I’m not a psychologist so that is HARD. So being able to relate on how tough and tedious these things are, was fantastic.

She wanted to read my book, so that’s why I spent all day fixing it… the rough draft was rough indeed. 😐 I started at 2 pm and finished at 1 am, took probably an hour and a half worth of breaks-ish, and emailed her part 1 of my rough draft. Fingers crossed! I always get extremely nervous of anyone reading what I write… I am super self conscious thinking everyone will be judging me and hate it. But I decided I have to get over that or I’ll never go anywhere with any of my books. (I currently have 4 different books started.)

I’m very excited to have someone not blood related to me reading my book! They don’t have any biased views or opinions like relatives do.. I don’t trust them 100%. Their love of me may skew their vision. 🧐 Now that I’ve been exhausting my brain and murdering my eyes all day, I’m wide awake and it’s almost 2 am. Hopefully I can get to sleep soon! But somehow my own book draws me in like I’m reading it for the first time no matter how many times I reread it to correct errors, so my brain thinks it’s time to work still.

Here’s another picture of my cat, Sasha. Isn’t she just adorable? πŸ₯° Till next time world! That will most likely never see this post. πŸ™ƒ

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